Friday, May 10, 2013

even St. Peter's bones decay

“If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it will obey you."
--Christ, to His Apostles. None of them ended up uprooting mulberry trees, so far as we know.

If I had one piece of unsolicited advice for you, I would say this:
If you are ever called upon to sacrifice, don't do it.
Run far away.
If God ever says to you, "More will be asked of you than you are willing to give."
Don't give it.
Find the deepest, darkest corner of the world and hide there until the all-knowing one has forgotten about you.
Then, maybe, you can return to your small little hobbit hole, and live out the rest of your life in a cozy, middle-class, midwest, suburban, go-to-church-on-Sundays-maybe existence.
Or if that sounds far too middle-American, maybe you can go to a city and hide in the vast expanse of people there.
There is enough motion and traffic and hustle and bustle, and an overabundance of sensory stimulation. You'll probably never ever have to be alone with your thoughts.
Or, more terrifying a thought still, with yourself.

The great enemy of faith is fear. Peter can testify to this as he tried to walk on water or in the High Priest’s courtyard after Jesus’ arrest. All the Apostles can attest to this in the Garden of Gethsemane. We see how often Jesus and angels are telling people—Mary, Joseph, the Apostles and disciples, those being healed – “Don’t be afraid.” 
There is no reason to fear. Just Believe.
--Fr. Frank Quinlivan, C.S.C.

Sacrifice is all well and good as long as it doesn't hurt.
Tithing is alright, as long as it doesn't eat into your bank account.
Stopping and giving some spare change to someone is usually good.
Just don't open up space in your mind or your heart for someone else.
That's where the real trouble begins.

"Do not be afraid.
Go on speaking, and do not be silent, for I am with you."
--God to Paul, who took that command to heart. Paul talked a lot.

Keep quiet, don't do anything to draw unwanted attention to yourself, and maybe you'll get away with living a mind-numbingly ordinary life.
If you're lucky, you'll never be asked to give away your heart, and maybe you can hold onto it, until it turns as rotten as an overripe banana.
The only advice I don't know how to give you is what to do then with your heart, because the only possible use I know of for a heart is to give it away.

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