Sunday, June 24, 2012

so heart be still

During our crash-course Vision class, we read Thomas Merton's New Seeds of Contemplation. His work is undeniably amazing. He speaks of contemplation, saying that through contemplation, we come to find God, and through finding God, we come to find ourselves. We find ourselves as we truly ought to be.
That day, we were charged to go spend half an hour in contemplative silence. It was actually really difficult. I realized that I often have a million different thoughts and interior conversations going on in my head and heart. I'm a chatterbox inside and outside. But I went out alone and sat in my favorite tree that overhangs the lake. And there, in the stillness and the sunlight, and the fish in the water, and the reflection of the watery light dancing on the green leaves, and in the wind on my face, the blue sky, there was the beauty of God. And in that moment, I just let myself be overwhelmed by the immense love and beauty of God. The love that created the beauty of everything around me. It was beautiful.

Vision has been, so far, a very busy experience. There's a lot going on, there's a lot to do. It's jam-packed with activity. But, since sitting on that tree for half an hour, there's a quiet that's taken up residence in my soul. It's a quiet that comes when I actually listen to the words of the Psalmist and "Be Still and Know that I am God." The challenge of the call to be a "contemplative in the heart of the world" (Mama T) is remembering to constantly be still and know who is God, while busily engaged in God's work. 

That's the challenge that I'm taking up this second week. Here we go. Vision 2012, Take II.

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